YBBG Confession: I'm a starter

So after reading YBBG, you may have come to learn that I am very introspective. Sometimes I go very deeply into who I am as a person. That's important because this blog taps into all of my personalities. (Yes plural. No, I don't have a condition lol)

So right now I'm sitting at the mechanic getting my car inspected. And I started thinking about some things. I start a lot of stuff. (No, not like that...well sometimes...). You know how when you see advertisements for jobs that state: Must be a self-starter?

That is ME. Self starter always. I am motivated...in the beginning...

I actually started thinking about this the other day when I realized that I am Facebook friends with guys I have gone out with in the past. I'm Facebook friends with my high school sweetheart, my college sweetheart, my law school sweetheart (well I was, but we have parted ways lol), my post law school sweetheart...and some guys I've just gone on dates with...plus a current (eehhh that's for another day)

Then it dawned on me I start relationships that I never finish. There has never been a PERIOD on the end of my dating relationships...they've just phased into quasi-friendship which makes it easier for me. (Not my homeboys...contrary to popular misconception I HAVE NEVER DATED MY HOMEBOYS EVER). This is easier for me because I don't like hurting feelings (surprise surprise), so I leave it to the guy to either make the decision or believe he has made the decision for me.

So again being introspective, I had to think about other aspects of what I don't finish. I started this blog, but never gave it much deeper thought than a hobby even when I said I would take it up a notch. Hey, I started it after all...but what about finishing the process? What about expanding it and letting it take off? That's the finishing point that I have yet to get to.

Then I started a book about this blog technically before I started the blog and I have yet to finish it.

I start, but right before I get to the end, I stop...

Now the thing is...I accomplish a lot, which makes absolutely no sense. I haven't finished the book I started, but I finished another book.

I make goals and complete them, but for me completion is just the act of doing something I set out to do...

Does any of this make sense to you? Can you relate? LOL please tell me I'm not the only starter-non-finisher out there...

(When I finish the book, you'll read more about this... ;) lol )

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